Detextor

In the distance a melody resounds with the veil of an old broken beauty, like poison languishing in our tongues. Dead dreams glooming in lost tears whipping the flesh of my false beliefs my punishment is to catter the seven seas. Doom has blown its trumpet permanence has torn apart all eternity suffering will evermore be my mark. Pain is the path I'm willingly imprisoned, love has become a plagued hellscape. My struggles I wear with a silent pride, away where healing's out of hope. “The wounds will never heal, my hands are filled with sorrow and my days are decaying into insanity. I'm getting tired of always moving forward, how much longer will I do my wait?” original release: https://detextor.blogspot.com/2020/02/escapism.html image: https://www.pexels.com/photo/factory-chimney-smoke-221000/

No truth lies where love blooms, everything dies and withers, so I shall cross out my own life for these tears won't release me. I search not for beauty, for it'll betray me the most, my life I indolently forfeited in the hope of overriding the guilt. "I still love you all so much, I feel so conflicted, when will the day come? When will it finally come?" I still remember your beautiful gestures, I'm afraid of the day when none of it will hurt, a time will come where my darkness  finally envelops me in a grim light  burning my shattered longings away. image: https://pixabay.com/photos/waterdrop-grief-trauerkarte-4474336/

Why do I weep needlessly? Perhaps I should end it all, I still remember your smile but now my heart lies dead and cold. I know I'll have to live on bearing all this misery and guilt. Why do I sleep my days away? Perhaps it should have been me. Dreaming of you brings me closer to you, the memories we shared slowly heal me, soothing the hurt and tears away, perhaps at night I can meet you again. In my self-conceit I still love you. I feel your absence wearing on these walls, as time passes, I'll fade out with you, fade with the regret, the love, the memories, hanging on to you until we meet again. image: https://www.pexels.com/photo/grayscale-photography-of-flowers-in-bloom-35766/

Walking down the streets, I'm the enabler of my own pain, urban bloodletting rituals my body's forfeit for their thirst. Lonely smiles dancing in hellfire, twisting and choking for love, portuguese nihilism, lust for angst, ecstasy for nightly suicides. Apathetic generations stuck in motion, we hunt for our doom, urban vampires, digital collision of existentialism, parasocial paranoia and delusion. Glorification of our wrongdoings a cultural mantle of falsehoods, no recollection of our misdeeds, we're dancing to our oblivion.

I'm a dark prophecy reborn, a grim and bleak future eludes hidden in human lust, undressed adorn. Lamenting tears spoiled for a dead love the omnipresence of a diluted violence is instilled as food in dissonance stripped in lands unknown for gods above. The neglected chaos is rising in uproar, our disgrace will wash us in flames, we are the devil appalled and enraged, long behind time, unworthy of any saviour. Artwork: https://www.artstation.com/artwork/6DmwW

• All of My Misery  • I'll drag this coffin so when the day comes I may lie for my eternal rest. I see death everywhere gripping at me it daunts me for long as I can remember and I'm done running from my own ghosts. I kiss my hopes goodbye,  so please cover my eyes,  pay me a bribe to the dead,  be misery my antagonic alibi. ══════•⊱✦⊰•══════ • Colère  • I hope you're still out there  lost in the thin lines of your truth  raining tears of a milk-white dream. I'm grateful regret still haunts me,  so I can guard my memory of you,  how dreadfully it chokes me. Crush my skull against a wall  so I can be whole again  and my shadow's set free. ══════•⊱✦⊰•══════ • Catharsis  • Only when you abandon yourself can you meet god's real face affixed with a death sentence thrown out of grace at your feet. So pull the string and toss me away to the wolves for death is the token you bring. A trial until I draw my last breath so all...