Detextor

Walking down the streets, I'm the enabler of my own pain, urban bloodletting rituals my body's forfeit for their thirst. Lonely smiles dancing in hellfire, twisting and choking for love, portuguese nihilism, lust for angst, ecstasy for nightly suicides. Apathetic generations stuck in motion, we hunt for our doom, urban vampires, digital collision of existentialism, parasocial paranoia and delusion. Glorification of our wrongdoings a cultural mantle of falsehoods, no recollection of our misdeeds, we're dancing to our oblivion.

Why do I weep needlessly? Perhaps I should end it all, I still remember your smile but now my heart lies dead and cold. I know I'll have to live on bearing all this misery and guilt. Why do I sleep my days away? Perhaps it should have been me. Dreaming of you brings me closer to you, the memories we shared slowly heal me, soothing the hurt and tears away, perhaps at night I can meet you again. In my self-conceit I still love you. I feel your absence wearing on these walls, as time passes, I'll fade out with you, fade with the regret, the love, the memories, hanging on to you until we meet again. image: https://www.pexels.com/photo/grayscale-photography-of-flowers-in-bloom-35766/

I'm a dark prophecy reborn, a grim and bleak future eludes hidden in human lust, undressed adorn. Lamenting tears spoiled for a dead love the omnipresence of a diluted violence is instilled as food in dissonance stripped in lands unknown for gods above. The neglected chaos is rising in uproar, our disgrace will wash us in flames, we are the devil appalled and enraged, long behind time, unworthy of any saviour. Artwork: https://www.artstation.com/artwork/6DmwW

• All of My Misery  • I'll drag this coffin so when the day comes I may lie for my eternal rest. I see death everywhere gripping at me it daunts me for long as I can remember and I'm done running from my own ghosts. I kiss my hopes goodbye,  so please cover my eyes,  pay me a bribe to the dead,  be misery my antagonic alibi. ══════•⊱✦⊰•══════ • Colère  • I hope you're still out there  lost in the thin lines of your truth  raining tears of a milk-white dream. I'm grateful regret still haunts me,  so I can guard my memory of you,  how dreadfully it chokes me. Crush my skull against a wall  so I can be whole again  and my shadow's set free. ══════•⊱✦⊰•══════ • Catharsis  • Only when you abandon yourself can you meet god's real face affixed with a death sentence thrown out of grace at your feet. So pull the string and toss me away to the wolves for death is the token you bring. A trial until I draw my last breath so all...

"il a que de l'angoisse dans mon coeur" Days old aspirations are gone,  I pledge myself to my only truth,  guilt is my only companion. The gray spectrum of my mind  is committed to the void I sink in,  the night sky mourns, all stars are misaligned (so what should I believe in)? "Tu me manques, sans ta douleur je ne suis personne" Cross my name out in the sky  for I'm the shivering nightmare  that strums in your heart's fair  ever igniting in a sleepless eye. source: https://pixabay.com/photos/galaxy-space-universe-night-sky-11098/

Our light shines the brightest when we meet the setting sun, for we rest our sincerest  when the humbling fire ceases at our final bask. Take my hand and walk me away  before I lose my path astray  for the devil's tracing me to my perched serenity only his malice knows how much I dread guilty. source: https://rare-gallery.com/966879-forest-monochrome-trees-nature-low-angle.html

I know there's nothing  but stacked up futile prayers,  all my dreams die out when I fall asleep. At face value, nothing matters  for peace and death still shakes on me,  there's no depth for this distress. I still hold dearly the old days  I miss they're glowing rapture,  for these are the memories I cherish the most. Artwork borrowed from: Location Unknown ◐ | catzz #pixiv https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/69553890