Spiritually Broken

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You were always alone
Alone with self-destructive thoughts
Carrying trauma and past memories
The pain we couldn't bear anymore
You were like a vivid memory
And now I'm like a depiction of numbness
We will be forever on our own

At least you had all the dreams of this world
And now I'm trapped in a void
You wanted to live
But I just do want to sleep
Run away from myself
I can't bear myself pretty well
I envy you, I envy your naiveness

Everything is always so intense
I have nowhere else to run from me
And now I live every day closed
Dreaming about a future
Where at least I will breath anew
You will be always like a star
You will be always my hope

You always were on the clouds
Alone with unbearable desires
Carrying trauma and past memories
The pain we would like to have rejected
You were like a colorful memory
And now I'm like a depiction of ugliness
We will be forever despising this reality

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