The Flower Lying In The Mud

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As the sun arises
A new day comes
But I always wonder
If I'm only dreaming
Underneath the sky
Am I revolving or crumbling in pieces?
While transcribing these words that I'm spelling
My body is struggling to stay awake
But your gentle melody is always comforting me
Always beneath my thoughts and tears
I'm even struggling to blow one more day
I don't have to believe in anything anymore
You always complain about everything bad in life
But I'm indifferent, I don't believe in anything anymore
I'm always driven by these foolish thoughts
But, you know, I'm not afraid to know who I am
But I want to fly with the birds, at least
One day I know that I'll be on my own all alone
I'd rather be this way, I don't want to hurt you anymore
A voice such as mine is dyed in darkness and mud
There's no light inside me, my spirit is far away
One day with the wind I will fly
I'll close my eyes and stop complaining about how sick I am
I'm not the jam of your life, I'm the flower lying in the darkness
But you, you mean the light which I'm not worth being embraced
I'm the flower of darkness lying nowhere but in the mud

19‎/05/2020

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