¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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I've been only sleeping 6 hours.

The mood keeps changing.

But I can hear your voice,

quivering by itself in my head.


My mind can't stay still.

I keep on counting the hours.

Everything is moving faster.

Even so, I'm feeling exhausted.


I want to cool it,

So I satisfy myself.

Leaving the urge growing,

It is quite shameful.


Keeping on going the same road.

I'm still foolish to believe in my delusions.

But now I see the point, you're after me,

so I have to escape from you.


I see the same bad attitude,

You have no balls to change,

All you keep doing is spilling bullshit,

Fake scene, fake beliefs, suck it all up then.


You fix your jacket,

pull a knife out,

lift the sleeves,

You cut yourself again.


For how long have I had memory loss?

It's quite funny how worthless it looks,

but I keep on laughing at my issues.

Even so, your words are an inspiration for me.


It's not the day I thought it was,

Then, what have I been doing these days?

I guess I've been typing the keyboard, 

In the hopes of finding the things I've forgotten.


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