Quivering Heart

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Why do you keep doing this to me, am I a joke to you?

Why do you make me have such childish behaviours?

You've let something slip away and, again, I'm being scolded

I'm tired of you, I'm tired of how you make me look like a clown


Don't tell me to have pity or not to blame my issues on you

I'd like everything to be normal, just the way things are supposed to be

Stop giving people the silent treatment and go f*ck yourself

Since birth you have made my life a complete mess, just disappear already


Slower or faster, it doesn't matter, it seems that you never make any sense

You've took all of my motivations away so many times. Dull or lame, it's as it goes

It's not even if I could cut you off from me, you're the parasite running inside me

It doesn't matter if I beg you to leave me alone, you'll always laugh at me


I've been born to live down and enranged, I'm cursed in your hands

I've never had the chance to slip away from your disgusting embarrassment

How would I love to have a brief moment of serenity and benevolence towards you 

Since up to this day, was it worth trying to have different outcomes about you?

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