Lupinus

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When I knew my mind was eased,
I can feel it growing stronger again,
All the pain is vanishing, I'm healing.
But you're still in my dreams,
I'm reaching you with a steady pace.
The time has finally come for me
to accept myself and those memories,
I won't deny the pain anymore,
even if I crash again,
I won't hide my feelings anymore.

Desires are beyond what my hands can reach,
I can see your face reflected in the wind,
maybe a day I will reach your heart.
But if I fail with my words,
then, kill me with your own hands.
For a long time I've let myself be led
by those foolish illusions,
and when I knew my oath
got modified, I was falling.

But from now on I'm going to believe
in my heart and strength,
because now I believe there are miracles.
I will change my heart,
I'm going out to the world,
on a new journey, I'll rewrite my life.
Even if I feel like giving up on everything,
I'll hold the belief that there are miracles,
and instead of always shedding tears, I'll smile.
I've found ma raison d'être, I can feel everything.
I want to hear your voice till the end of my life,
I want to see your fate, my heart is blooming again.

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