Between My Tights

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07/05/2020


I put a mediocre lipstick on,
prepare a bold neckline,
and go out to the streets.
I sell my body,
but the price is always loneliness.
Bitter, bitter are the consequences!

Shoes thrown in the room,
a few casual kisses are exchanged,
and as moonlight falls in, I fill my voracious lust.
The atmosphere heats up between my eyes,
and with a confident smile,
I tell myself I have nothing to lose.

I return home, cautiously
and as I let a sigh of relief, I found myself
gazing at a red trail and a body hanging.
It was something pretentious,
but, unconsciously, I embraced the body
of my boyfriend who had committed suicide.

A silly bitch like me doesn't deserve to live,
yet, I've longed for this humiliating scenario.
I light a cigarette, pack my bags,
turn off the lights and go on satisfying my vagaries.
And with a malicious smile,
I tell myself that not everything is between my eyes.

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