Commotion

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Dia após dia, acreditava
que ao teu lado era feliz.
Porém, este coração
continua a palpitar
os mesmos desejos.

Uma vida distorcida,
um coração distorcido,
um amor distorcido,
é, infelizmente, aquilo 
que desejo para sempre.

eu não procuro conforto,
nem ajuda, o meu destino
de viver na dor e no desespero,
é tudo aquilo que me resta.

Todos os dias repito as mesmas palavras,
da minha voz apenas mentiras decaem.
Porém, sozinho no meu canto,
eu desejo ser apagado.

Não importa se estou para cima ou para baixo,
nada mais importa a não ser esta solidão,
e mesmo que procure a tua face
nas gotas da chuva, a minha loucura está estendida
até ao meu último suspiro.

A voz do meu coração é vazia, 
no entanto, mesmo que eu 
seja preenchido com luz,
quero que o meu orgulho 
seja destroçado, 
até não restar qualquer 
resquício de esperança.

- English:

Day after day, I thought
I was happy by your side.
However, this heart
is still throbbing
the same desires.

A distorted life,
a distorted heart,
a distorted love,
is, unfortunately, what
I wish for until the end.  

I'm not looking for comfort,
nor help, my oath 
to live in pain and despair
is everything I have left.

Every day the same words are repeated, 
and from my voice only lies decay.
However, alone in my corner,
I wish to be erased.

It doesn't matter if I'm up or down,
nothing else matters but this loneliness,
and even if I search your face in the raindrops,
my madness is extended until the last breath of mine. 

My heart's voice is empty,
and even if I'm filled with light,
I want my pride to be crushed
until no hope remains.

imagem/image: https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/64399918

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