Denial // 2021 (unreleased poem)

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In a world where tomorrow doesn't exist,
I squirm myself in a delirium,
5mg of SSRI's is my last opium
as I tear myself apart to dust.

I'm that crazy, so I'll dream of sucking life dry
until there is no powder left for me to sprinkle
around all the foolish slurs I'm laughing at.

I'm that wasted, so I'll hit the sack
like a poor thing who has never loved,
shedding tears as I laugh at your dirty jokes.

Artwork borrowed from: 寡欲＠しゅーず | catzz #pixiv https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/102852101

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