Detextor

  Why do you keep doing this to me, am I a joke to you? Why do you make me have such childish behaviours? You've let something slip away and, again, I'm being scolded I'm tired of you, I'm tired of how you make me look like a clown Don't tell me to have pity or not to blame my issues on you I'd like everything to be normal, just the way things are supposed to be Stop giving people the silent treatment and go f*ck yourself Since birth you have made my life a complete mess, just disappear already Slower or faster, it doesn't matter, it seems that you never make any sense You've took all of my motivations away so many times. Dull or lame, it's as it goes It's not even if I could cut you off from me, you're the parasite running inside me It doesn't matter if I beg you to leave me alone, you'll always laugh at me I've been born to live down and enranged, I'm cursed in your hands I've never had the chance to slip away from your ...

 I My thoughts are spinning around Will I breath someday? My hands filled with sorrow Won't ever touch the heat of love The silence seems so distant And my heart echoes in despair Sinking and quievering in fear My body freezes to the point that I can't move I will forever be on a rush, restless, leaping on my dreams Trying to find the answers, they all seem abstract to me My mind won't ever sparkle the true colours of life My blood pressure is getting to its limits Will I collapse, will I ever wake up from this never ending dream? Those are the tears that my heart won't ever wash away My sorrows, memories and gentle words, it will never be forgotten As a last farewell, it won't be thrown to the deep sea of my quivering mind II It always comes as an outburst And lies to the limits of my mind It is like a crescendo inside of me It always gets louder and louder As a restless wind, such is my mind I don't feel my limbs anymore It always pushes me to my limits And al...

  I've been only sleeping 6 hours. The mood keeps changing. But I can hear your voice, quivering by itself in my head. My mind can't stay still. I keep on counting the hours. Everything is moving faster. Even so, I'm feeling exhausted. I want to cool it, So I satisfy myself. Leaving the urge growing, It is quite shameful. Keeping on going the same road. I'm still foolish to believe in my delusions. But now I see the point, you're after me, so I have to escape from you. I see the same bad attitude, You have no balls to change, All you keep doing is spilling bullshit, Fake scene, fake beliefs, suck it all up then. You fix your jacket, pull a knife out, lift the sleeves, You cut yourself again. For how long have I had memory loss? It's quite funny how worthless it looks, but I keep on laughing at my issues. Even so, your words are an inspiration for me. It's not the day I thought it was, Then, what have I been doing these days? I guess I've been typing the ...

  Tu dizias que eras o resquício, de uma vida desgasta na dor. Eu acredito que jamais foste, a escuridão que acreditavas ser. a tua jornada ainda é longa! Mesmo que os anos se tenham passado, e tu continues vivo, acho que devias ver além, do sofrimento e acreditar no que esteja por vir. O futuro ainda mal aconteceu e já o queres prever? Não devias desistir, não devias fugir de ti mesmo. Agarrando-te a mentiras para te protegeres, e sempre de cabisbaixo a murmurar, o quão já não valia a pena sentir ou respirar. Não acho que devias te ter menosprezado,  e tomar a vida como uma mentira charmosa. Acredita que, apesar dos teus pecados, tens o direito de continuar aqui. O fluxo da vida continua, mas não é isso belo? A tua força está no facto de ainda teres esperança. Dentro do teu coração jamais desapareceu o desejo, de continuar vivo e ter um futuro melhor. Eu serei eterno, e tu serás a lembrança dos meus erros.

  How long has it been, huh? We were always with our fists on, ready to pick a fight. It was twisted, but at least, we were always there, Wasn't it enough? Tough times made us grow apart, even so, I wonder if you're still there, where we always used to hide. Banging around our fists to survive, it was running or kicking around. But one day I saw it all happening, even those bastards who used to pick on us, Also saw it all, suddenly you disappeared. Distorted and faded, your image has been erased from my mind. Even though, I keep telling myself the same thing, it was worth it, after all, it served us right, at that time it all happened as it had to, we broke some of our teeth and bones, but after all, it was nice meeting you. cover; https://piapro.jp/t/--Kd blogspot; https://memoriasdeumdetextor555.blogspot.com/2020/08/2011.html

  Hey, you from the other side, You're real, aren't you? Then why do you keep laughing at me? Your distorted and unbearable arrogance. Even if you don't have a shape or form, I despise you for having never ceased laughing. Tomorrow morning you'll be there, watching me with those eyes. I can see you with your sad expression. You're blue as the sky, yet so cold. I wonder where you go when I close my eyes, Sure, you're being swallowed to the other side of... Searching for a place to lie my soul, you keep on calling my name, Still, I can see you self-consoling yourself, Hidden in a corner, shedding tears of sorrow. I despise you for having never revealed who you are. Yet, something keeps on murmuring inside our minds. cover; https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/71175012

I look up for the maze's exit, but there is only confusion. My mind is racing in thoughts, even so, I find reason in you, although this oath is due, I'm thankful for still being alive. I grab a hold of myself, and throw my madness, to the depths of my mind. I'm used to being the leftover, Dissolving in its own past. But as much as I'm concerned, there is still hope for me,  there is a reason for me to move on, therefore, it's time to put myself aside, And shape your future with me, Rather than rotting alone in a corner. I don't need to lean on my suffering anymore, even if life changes, I must keep going on, because there is no place for hopelessness, in this foolish heart of mine, even if everything withers. Although, there is something that never changes, I wonder if it is love or passion for life, because even if I'm sinking or lifting, giving up is not like me. cover: https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/83059196

I've been wandering alone in this never-ending myriad, until now I've been shut and blind in my hatred. But then, truth shall be told, you were there, in the endless stars, in the sky above my eyes, looking for me, a broken and rusty wheel, you were dancing like the flowers of gardenia. Your beauty, my heart has sinked in your shapes. And now I just want you to hold me in your arms, I want to feel your touch, smell the scent of your body. I wish you by my side in our future realm of delight, far away from this degenerate and rotten world, so our feelings can remain forever interlaced, And stay pure as the silky snow of the winter. You know, my beloved, like the mournful moonlight, I was drowned in a river of kalmia's tears, but my soul has found you on a sunny day's glimpse, and I grabbed it in hopes to settle down my despair. Even if your voice is still dyed of bitter disgust, and I have deeply disappointed you and been a egotistical bastard, I want to pierce my ego, I...