Detextor

 Drown me in your lies, and break my bones, you know I hate you.  Sink yourself into me, and pray I'll fall with you, choking in confusion, in a lush.  With you I felt barren, exposed, like a knife running through the skin burning, yet cold in your distant arms.

We've been blind all this long adoring the golden betrayer, praying to an earth bleeder, we've been lied to all along. Oblivious is the love and hate set in motion,  we're tyrants of time, yet we sit in depression,  we mercilessly clean the defenceless weak, our religion's a crusade to world's obliteration. A union caused to usher in the apocalypse all light has been disgraced, all hope is lost, we've long snuffed out its whispering warnings. image borrowed from: https://pixabay.com/photos/stars-galaxy-space-rosette-nebula-67616/

 Photons of light piercing through our skin, life still grows in dark times, beauty yet remains, while chaos has already struck our frail heart's.  Old day tears bloom life anew in our dampened souls, love's slowly being poured in the canvas I once smeared with darkness, as dreams fly me away to a brighter future.  The passing seasons will remind me of you, your love is proof of my tears of happiness, sadly the time has come for me to step forward, I beg of you to tend over me as fear might grasp at me, grant me the wisdom to nourish the stars the fallen sky has yet to tell.

 Without you I live without purpose, that day I buried myself with you.  Without you I'm worth nothing.  My tears for you have no end waiting to join you in eternal slumber, time will only numb your loss.  I linger on in the beauty of your light, hoping to hear your voice again praying to again be basked in your warmth.  Is there no hope of us meeting again? You who were my only love, how can I now live on without you?

     You were holier than life, brighter than all lights ashine, now I'm hanging by the thread exasperatedly wasted on your loss.  I'm left to drag the burden of myself, guess I've got no escape this time, guess I'm sinking deeply in the grief, hell if one day I let myself feel safe again.  So fueled in my misery, yet I lie buried below, the world's on fire, and I'm already burning.  If I make it out of here awake, I'll be damned, all life's beauty is wasted without your warmth. “Without you life's not worth it, but I'll promise to hold on to this guilt, to the love you gave me, and to the memories I won't ever be able to live again!" image: https://pixabay.com/photos/creux-du-van-mountains-abyss-994820/ Rougher version: You were holier than life, now there's a coffin waiting for me and I'm wasting my liver to get there. Guess I gotta live with myself for now, guess I've got no escape this time, guess I'm sinking deeply i...

In the distance a melody resounds with the veil of an old broken beauty, like poison languishing in our tongues. Dead dreams glooming in lost tears whipping the flesh of my false beliefs my punishment is to catter the seven seas. Doom has blown its trumpet permanence has torn apart all eternity suffering will evermore be my mark. Pain is the path I'm willingly imprisoned, love has become a plagued hellscape. My struggles I wear with a silent pride, away where healing's out of hope. “The wounds will never heal, my hands are filled with sorrow and my days are decaying into insanity. I'm getting tired of always moving forward, how much longer will I do my wait?” original release: https://detextor.blogspot.com/2020/02/escapism.html image: https://www.pexels.com/photo/factory-chimney-smoke-221000/

No truth lies where love blooms, everything dies and withers, so I shall cross out my own life for these tears won't release me. I search not for beauty, for it'll betray me the most, my life I indolently forfeited in the hope of overriding the guilt. "I still love you all so much, I feel so conflicted, when will the day come? When will it finally come?" I still remember your beautiful gestures, I'm afraid of the day when none of it will hurt, a time will come where my darkness  finally envelops me in a grim light  burning my shattered longings away. image: https://pixabay.com/photos/waterdrop-grief-trauerkarte-4474336/