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When I knew my mind was eased, I can feel it growing stronger again, All the pain is vanishing, I'm healing. But you're still in my dreams, I'm reaching you with a steady pace. The time has finally come for me to accept myself and those memories, I won't deny the pain anymore, even if I crash again, I won't hide my feelings anymore. Desires are beyond what my hands can reach, I can see your face reflected in the wind, maybe a day I will reach your heart. But if I fail with my words, then, kill me with your own hands. For a long time I've let myself be led by those foolish illusions, and when I knew my oath got modified, I was falling. But from now on I'm going to believe in my heart and strength, because now I believe there are miracles. I will change my heart, I'm going out to the world, on a new journey, I'll rewrite my life. Even if I feel like giving up on everything, I'll hold the belief that there are miracles, and instead of always sheddin...

Eu sou aquele que sofre, no final sempre enjaulo as minhas lágrimas,  E escondo-me por detrás de uma face monstruosa.  Romance platónico.  Lado a lado.  Felicidade no silêncio.  Coração em êxtase.  Demónios que rasgam a minha alma,  porém continuo a andar em frente com todas as minhas feridas.  Não vou poder olhar nos teus olhos,  invadir-me no teu horizonte,  mesclar-me num só contigo.  Sinto-me em pânico.  Tu desapareces-te, meu lírio.  Agora vejo-me caído em lágrimas,  Tudo o que me restou foi a grande solidão Que neste meu coração deixaste.  Estarás a olhar por mim?  Eu só te desejo ao meu lado!  Por favor, mais uma vez diz o meu nome,  não me deixes cair em desespero.  Quero sentir o teu abraço caloroso,  e encontrar-me nos braços da tua esperança.  ________________________________________________ Info: Originalmente escrito em 2018, editado e revisado em 2020

Nos vossos olhos brilham todos os sonhos que deste mundo já foram perdidos. Os vossos corações tão quentes  transbordam de cores exuberantes. Silenciosamente patinham o vosso destino, onde cai as folhas secas de outono. o vento as assopra com gentileza, acompanhando os doces passos da vossa destreza. O doce perfume das folhas e das árvores, demonstram como a vossa simplicidade pode ensinar aos mais ignorantes que a vida ainda é cheia de beleza e bondade. Até a vossa inocente doçura amolece os corações mais distorcidos. Serenos são os vossos olhares,  e solene é o vosso ronronar. ---------------------------------------------------------------- Dedicado este poema a alguém muito especial para mim, desejo-te felicidades e um Feliz Aniversário, Adoro-te! 

My life is not only mine, there are people caring about me, and begging me to cherish them. But even so, I'm still being this hysteria. Even in a coward way, I try to run away from the truth, A distorted life has been my rule. So, why won't I break from this vicious cycle? I need to stop this charade of mine, Because my "fortia" is still there. My existence is not only mine, there might be tears falling somewhere, begging me to hold them tight. But even so, I'm still being this hysteria. image; https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/82674940

  From the sound of my words, there are only crumbling lies. This is the devil's poetry, his words resonate with mine. I'm only a deceiver, go away. I sigh in vain, it's enough. my hands, voice and heart, always tear everything apart. Under the same sky, I walk beside you all, my only worth is death, I don't deserve anything.  I won't hold these words, I'd like to stand for you, but this is the end of my hope, I won't hurt any of you anymore. This is the devil's melody, I'm crying, the darkness I hold won't seep away, eternity has vanished long ago, my hands won't reach you anymore. My tears are tainted in misery, if, at least, I could save you, but my voice is crumbling down. The devil's laughing at me. Image: https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/83152627

 I wipe my tears away. You're not here anymore, and as I shout your name, my chest hurts. Now I'm left alone with these feelings of sorrow. My loneliness, the gods have never chosen me,  then, the only hope I have left is to move forward with life. My heart is tearing apart, I'm begging you to comeback, but now it's too late, it's all my fault to have let you feel alone, And even if I killed myself, those times are not coming back, They won't happen ever again, then what should I do? Should I pierce or feed on the feelings I have left for you? I'm crying for you, but I have to move forward with life. 13/08/20

"Don't expect anything,  don't deceive me." these are the words,  I keep on repeating to myself. My hatred is growing stronger. Not to belong to this aborted world, is what I mostly strive for, even tears don't fall anymore, I'm tired, I can't bring myself out of this misery, Why did the world choose me? I was the one your heart picked, but it was all a lie, I'm giving up, there was never hope to begin with. I just want to crash once again, and never see clearly at all anymore. Erase, please erase me forever. There is no beauty nor hope in this world, I was deceived, the gods deceived me. I think I will just keep living this life, Pushing everyone away, I'm hurt enough already, Even though these feelings won't seep away. Don't even try to ease or comfort me, Don't even say how stupid I'm being, I'm even better off dead from your life, I've had enough from all this confusion, It's not as if I'm going to love again, be...

Chew their eyes Blow their mantra And suck their content Times are driven by your tongue And the language of the lost Then poison their message The blind is decried The dirt embraced I see exploitation in their smiles Caress our hearts with your melody Smash our hopes with your hatred You're the queen of oblivion and disgust Create an image of fire and chaos Tear our hearts apart with your voice You are above and beyond, we despise you Note: "Chair" is another word for flesh in French. 

  As the moonlight lullaby, you were dissolving my mind. Like the reckoning of Jupiter, I could feel my soul running away from me. Chocking, unconscious I was, you mowed my life with a kiss, planted your seeds in me, and enlightened me in your emptiness. You lifted my soul to nowhere. I could hear their voices calling my name, their tears falling in the lake of sadness. Then, everything turned into a long dream. In the embrace of your repentance, I have found beauty in your mercy. And in your beautiful mourning, There was the meaning of everything.